Well, just to a lil bits of update.....I've finally overcome my own ball-less action and I've finally did it. Although I kind of nervous in the first place, but after I'd overcome it....my burden nor worry-ness and bag of sandbag sitting on top of my head all gone like a wind just like that. In fact I don't really believe in faith all the time, but this time don't know whether really a faith that god really wanted me to do it so perfectly, I just give it a shot....but after I try to refer back....my Tembak shot really one of a hell of a head shot. Me myself are so stoned after I've referred to the real answer. It was so "right" and just in a right time I give that shot. So whether is it really god is helping or not...nobody knows....anyway...thanks god! I've did it!
Sigh....although I got the things I want....although I felt abit better after I got the thing....but still left something.....is on Monday...how should I approach again...how should I start it? But I really try to cold blooded to become a straight....the very type straight forward person without any need of explanation why this and that, how I wish that could be. Hope I really will have a smooth one. Showed and explained the things to my mom, well she's quite okay with the thing, hmm....at least she's agree with it....sometimes try to chat with seniors or your parents no matter how auntyness they are...they still have more experience than you. After you got your consultation, you will really feels better...well..I got to know this few years back although I don't really have a good chat with my parents or seniors at times....but when you really try to serious and talk to them...they will treat you well as well.....final words would be...wish myself goodluck! All the best to myself! Love myself!
Many people tend to ask me....why do I complain alot about my job, is it because of your own personality or attitude problem of yourself? Well, last time I did think of all these before....then I always think that maybe is really because of my problem....maybe yes....until today...nobody understands how I feel....always thinks that..."aiya this fella, abit abit kenot tahan this n dat" well today I'm pretty sure is not my problem already.....is really the company do have problems...the 2nd time I go back also I haven't had that kinda feelin....now I really really sure bout this case....that's y I always write things up is mainly for me to remember what has updated...so I will treat this as my diary ...always write things up and until end of the day I can browse back my histories...well it's really fun to browse back your histories...to read up what had happened.....like complaints......I know there is too much of complaints about my work...well...this is life....I'm trying my best to find my best environment career....if there is no complaint then is not call life....
another complaint...from myself....just to shoutout only...
I'm gonna burst pretty soon....hate this kinda feeling. I hate the sentence you always mentioned that really makes me pissed off, demotivated, alot of outside people don't understand how I feel now. But people who is on the same boat as me know how I feel, one of it is actually my fren. Just to share with those sentence,
- You will be penalized, just wait and see! - Last Warning! / Last warning to you / Last Warning from management / you will be receiving a warning letter from management - I will pass to other colleague to handle, I felt that you are not capable to handle this customer - you will be transfred to be in charged for PC & Maintenance only without further notice. - Forget yourself of becoming a salesperson - If you lost please forget of selling this product - the deal will consider waive and belong to management or minus straight from your allowance" - don't fail me again - it's something wrong with him - wasting management time - wasting management resources - are u new in sales? buzz off ! - Final reminder to you - Is it a holdiday ? Why no appt ? - I miss my PO / I want my PO in by this month - we will transfer that particular customers to other salesperson handle without further notice. - last chance to you
I'm speechless now, my fren just came in work just for 2-3 weeks he already mentioned what kind of company is this although I've told him all these stories...but he never expect is like this. Well, bye to you soon again...although I've eaten the "backward grass" and is taste badly, I hardly can swallow it.......sigh......
After nothing better to do....I go and look for Aggressive In-Line Skating videos....It actually reminds of those days .....really miss those moments with my skate buddies even at night we're still street skating all day in basement or sneak in into construction area just to taste that peace of "hand rails" or grinding that will sometimes hurt your balls pretty hard if you miss the grind shot.....Use to watch these skate videos on videotape daily just to learn the right way to GRIND on hand rails. Now I'm aging...can't afford to break my knees anymore....per pair skate is costing at RM600 to RM1K....those days were only RM200-400 per pair....just miss those sweet days....
Well.... when I'm actually surfing the net...suddenly I've browse into this article...something meaningful to share about Steve Jobs (CEO of Apple & Pixar)
Well...come back to conclusion is....ask us human...try to do the things that you like eg. like jobs....try to work on a task and not for the sake of money....is for the sake of happy and you really enjoy it. BUT, I don't think I can afford that...many of us asians don't dare to risk their lifes...alot of them doing the things that they really don't like, sometimes not to say BLAMING other HUMANS, sometimes you really enjoy the jobs or job scope, BUT will be spoiled by other HUMANS this case is normally happened, and is the real fact in our reality world.
If you ask me to dream what is my job scope would be, well...I know it won't happen unless I'm 1 of the rich kids....everything will be very simple....Work remotely...or Work from home provided with another room as fully on work, after I'm just one step out from my office to my home....doesn't that sounds great? LOL...people will think I'm crazy....and I really hope there is a way to earn money from Internet, that's why I have this idea of working from home, work for myself, nobody is on top of you. With a simple and well designed office.....haha! I writing craps here.....
I've forgotten to thanks my love ones who is supporting and give me advices all the way especially my darlin now she's in Aus clears alot of my doubts been there for me when I need advice, my parents who is supporting me as well that gives me meaningful advices as well, my sis who is there try to search around from other websites to look for a better opportunities for me. This is all I got to say....without all your support and advices I will lost....cause I'm really lack of experience...
Well...some updates...finally got some good news for myself....I've been offered to this "bigger" company, job scope everything is the same, selling one of the same products but customer base is much more stronger. Everything is in very professional way, no more family business anymore, no more deduction on allowance, no more rely on panel doctor anymore, everything can claim including entertainment fees as well...sounds interesting? Hope there is no more barking from superior, I heard from outside rumours saying that alot of training provided. Although is working on the level 26 in KL, sounds very corporate....is this where my 2nd level of career start? Hope everything will go smooth....but how am I going to tell my current boss? Still worrying on this, he is not an easy person to handle seriously. gosh...
Just feel sad...real sad, depressed and pressured....sigh...seems like I dun't have a choice...still trying to find a best solution to work it out....but how Mr Blogger? how?! Why there is 1 network cable with so many noise and distortion ? Why can't I have a nice network cable? Only one connector? Can I choose? WTF i'm mumbling here....I dunoo......I dunnooo.......ARRRRGGHHH!!!!!!
Nobody wants to listen my words, so I have personally seek for Mr Blogger listener's help again.
What has actually happened? Well, maybe is my fate to become a sales person....I went to a job agency today to interview after my work...at 1st I wanted to look for a pre-sales job....I've had a few hours chat with the interviewer...can say not bad compared to so many jobs agencies like manpower those....this one really give free consultation. Ok, why I said I still can't runaway from sales jobs, here is why....they way I speak, I clearly speaks out what am I actually doing....I know how to sell myself very well( I din't know I have this ability)...I speaks professionally...attire is clean as a sales person, represents a good image of myself....and with my fake glasses on she said I'm confidence but innocent(WTF?) and etcs....This is what the interviewer told me...
Yet, after I've explained why I wanted to leave....why I wanted to go back to technical.what is actually happening in the company...then she told me....I don't think you have a problem at all...the only problem is your company management...as not enough professional at all....then she said she had dealing with alot of people in sales IT line....only the company I work that have this kinda problem that made sales person wanted to give up doing sales...as she ask me shudn't give up as she is offering me a job (big IT company) and the pay is really "quite lumayan" she asked me to mark up the amount from what I've expected in my resume....guide me how to win the job offer from that company. Well I'm not sure yet..although the IT company still doing the same securities line as what I'm doing now.....just give it a try on the interview see how it goes....and is not corporate sales anymore...is more to channel sales.....I'm not happy, I'm not excited...just wanted write up what had happened...later people sure say....aiya this fella once in a while different story....so I got no comments....
Finally I've decided to browse some jobs to look around, I'm not saying I wanted to quit now....just that I wanted to see the market...I might give up sales because why? I don't seem I can learn anything from it besides going out meeting people get the deals in. I really do not have hands on experience on technical area. I do not want to regret when I'm age 30, yes many people agree sales job got allowances etcs....everything sounds good, although I'm able to hit target...and I've put alot of effort into it, but well? what about next few months? How is the new customers coming in? How are you going to find it again? Just felt that is not my type, although I know many of you would say I'm a job seeker, jump around to look for jobs. But at least I wanted to find the job I really wanted...I won't say much things....just wanted to find my desired job. I've been critised by people, your technical skills is sucks, "oh yea, he is in sales he don't know more bout technical stuffs" Well, I'm trying to find ways to get into hands on, yet really don't have to chance to explore more into it, just the cover. So I have to start from 0 as a junior maybe, nobody can help me if I don't help myself.
Well why I joined back my ex-company last time? Well I know why, cause I'm desperately need cash....$$$ nobody can backed me up or help me, then I've accepted my old company offer. Sigh...My career path seems like kinda rough and not smooth at all....what is actually happening?
