Saturday, December 30, 2006
counting down to year 2007 : status: older
Well, one more day to eve of 2007. What do I get in the end of Dec actually? Wealth? no I don't think is a very good one, is a real fucked up one end of the year of 2006. I'm fucking broke now, lose my fucking job, you know why? work with friends. Well I don't blame the people outside who work with friends have problems, even when you work with strangers also will have problem as well. Only thing is when come into money, yes the fucking dollar sign that everyone is going after for to survive. There is no friends, you work more or you work less...when you getting more than your partners but you are not doing your job...then you are out of the game. This is how life goes, of course I'm not the boss....I work under the directors whom had problem. End up company have to close down, what I had left? nothing....
Why I go back and work with friends? Well, I know my problem...I want to work with friends, cause I can lepak with friends while working, I thought I know how to think that I'm able to control myself while working with friends. But I can't, after I've intro some of the deals over to the company, when I'm working outside.....where is a single cent? Maybe we are categorized under the non-successful working with friends category. I know there is alot of cases out there. Sometimes I help out, I do ask myself sometimes, I'm helping a friend or helping my ex-colleague or boss? Does it has any difference between helping a friend and helping ex- colleague or boss? Well I think a friend is bout trust maybe noneed black & white(that's how shit happens), ex-colleague or boss got black & white(this one seems safer).
I'm going to work with my ex-company again although the ex-boss did fucked me alot. I still treat him as a menthor to me and he did guide me alot. Hope it will have a good new year start on january 2007. For the status now I'm having...I'm able to survive until middle of january...not much left in my bank already, paid alot of debts.
Wish everyone a Happy New Year of 2007, a good luck one!
Saturday, December 23, 2006
why do I care? Mind Your Own Business first people!
Suddenly out of my mind....I would like to shout out that I really don't fucking care bout other people's life, their things, their bad behaviour or what so ever fucked up things. Why do I need to let people know that their life shouldn't be like this or your life had been fucked up or wat so ever? And why the fuck those people need counseling since they already had an answer or decision in their mind? Just to feel better? I would go on with my good life, do my good things, don't create crimes and follow the rules....the world would be peace. Why does hate and violence occurs? Is because of people care, they want to take revenge, or they want them to be better but the other party is stubborn. Then this would create war, hate, fight, kill or what so ever fucked up attitude! I just don't care! I will forgive the people who hurted me, cause I don't care. You go on with your life, I go on with my life. That's fair enough that conflicts between people will end. They don't accept the real life fact sometimes, there is where this kinda issues comes in, they believe in themselves...where stubborness occurs...although in this fucking world nothing is really fair....everyone have to give and take. I'm not saying that I don't love my love ones or siblings or friends, I do care them but not with stubborness, hates, feeling wanted to strangle and etcs....That is why this Business Accounting software MYOB comes in...to help people to mind their business and don't step into other people's account to see how much they earn or lose.
I know there is people will disagree with me with their stubborness, well...I'm sharing the real life situation over here to every single human beings or life beings out there including myself....If readers felt offensive bout it....just read and leave.....I don't fucking care...and I don't want to create conflicts! ...that's your business....this is my personal blog...I like to write what I like...nobody ask you to read!
Thursday, December 21, 2006
I'm typing http://www.jobstreet.com.my.......
Well, I'm back to my job hunting again...guess what? I'm jobless !!! arrggghh!!!!!! I really had enough! Want to know what happened? yea...my current company had some directors between director fights....conclusion? Break la...what else? Although this company is already blacklisted long time by my loves ones including my families....ask me not to go back....well....it did happened, did happened as what it seems as predicted by my family members and love ones....But of coz I will find a better company this time, no more 1 man show company for me..I've had 3 interviews for this week although I've applied not many of applications, a good start for me. Hope things would be better.
Well guess what? another stupid and malu case did happened to me last Saturday. I accidentally stepped into the Ladies in Sg Wang. I paid the toilet cashier inside the Ladies, she scolded me in malay (OI!!...LAKI TANDAS KAT SEBELAH LA!!!) Then I ooopsss....faster grab back my 20sen then cabut, luckily nobody is around only my GF and her fren...of coz they are laffing at me la...malunye....
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Anger Management
Well, does everyone has this issue with their full control over their own emotions? Well I think I do, for the past few days my emotional went crazy I did hurt someone, after that few minutes I'm back to total control what is actually happening. Although I always comment bout people that they can't take full control of their emotions and I always mentioned to myself that I won't be like them. But my judgment for myself is totally wrong. I can't control over it, it's the first time in my life that I've discovered the weakness or would like to say the dark side of me? I really felt bad bout it every minute I'm typing all these word by word, I still can feel the pain inside of me, sleepless nights kept hunting me to remind me of that incident. I would tell that to myself, must have a really good anger management!
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